It seems unreal and like a nightmare that the cancer in Kaedyn’s body came back. He looks and feels miserable. It seems like ages since I’ve seen my sweet boy feeling good and smiling. It wasn’t ages ago though; it was less than 2 months ago. I hate this monster and can’t wait for it to never affect another person. Cancer is taking so many young lives and often. I read on FB about a young dad fighting stage 4 cancer, and I read about other children fighting cancer, my mom is surviving but we live in constant fear, and now my son is fighting all over again.
Scientists have found cures for illnesses that kill many people. When will we see a stop to this disease?
Kaedyn was readmitted to Shands yesterday and I prepared him. He was not too sad, as I’ve explained to him that his body makes bad cells and we have to make his body produce good cells. This means we have to stay in the hospital, take medicine and see a’lot of Doctors. I tell him I’m so sorry and I wish I could take this away, but I can’t. He asked me today if the Doctors know how to fix him? What do you say to that? I want to assure him he will be healed, but I can’t. I can hope and trust in the Lord, but there is still a chance they can’t cure him. I just don’t know.
I get warm and fuzzy feelings he will be fine. But I’ve seen and spoken with other moms and they got those same feelings, but their child left this earth. Is the warm and fuzzy feelings telling me he will be ok because he will go to Heaven or because he will be cured this time. I just don’t know, but I continue to pray that God allows me to watch my first born, my life, my beautiful, precious and stubborn boy grow up and become an amazing young man.
Please pray for Kaedyn to not have any horrible side effects from this intense chemo and that his VRE clears up. Pray about the boo boo on his back as it is still healing and we need it completely healed!